#destiel #this part kills me #it will always kill me #because at this point Cas is holding back the Leviathans #he knows that he won’t be okay #and what does he do? #makes a promise to Dean #but it isn’t even that #it’s his FACE #he’s looking at Dean - for what he knows is possibly the last time - and you can just see him memorizing every little feature #the freckles - his nose - the way his hand is so soft on his arm #and Cas is just #in this moment #wants Dean Winchester to be the last thing he sees before he dies #AND I CAN’T
You know in all the great movies? When the best friend finally tells the girl what the audience has always known, that he’s been in love with her all along? I can’t let you do this. It can’t go on any longer. I can’t sit here and watch you fall in love with somebody else when I’m already so in love with you. This is that moment, and Cas knows it. All along he’s felt it too, but he’s been waiting. Waiting for the go-ahead, to open the floodgates, and let the love that has been there all along pour out. It’s the pinnacle moment in a love story, when finally, finally, everyone admits it out loud. But, although Cas might be ready, Dean is not. As Dean looks at Cas his reserve begins to crumble, and Dean knows he could never ask for so much, for someone to love him unconditionally when he will never deserve it. So he backtracks, shakes off the “chick-flick” moment, and puts his walls up once again. The moment is gone, and it’s a sucker-punch to the gut for Cas. One day Cas will say it, though. When the time is right. But for now he can only look away and hope that his thoughts are loud enough to be heard: Dean Winchester, you’ll always deserve to be loved.
Two idiots getting married (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:・ﾟ✧